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I go out so I am not alone. I listen to music to retreat from silence. I drink to elude an excess of thought. I stay up all night to avoid slumber. I nap all day to dodge consciousness. I abhor being lonely because I have no one to miss. I stray from silence because I have no one to enjoy it with. I despise my thoughts because they have no one to dwell on. I escape from slumber because I have no one to dream about. I waste my waking hours because I have no one to cherish them with. None of these tactics work.